"Battery" Metallica
I just fucking did it. Bit the bullet. I was going to drag this sexual intensity out for another post then check his snap. But first, I did leave the house for the gym. Lifting weights always helps with anxiousness and sexual tension and sexual frustration. I went during the after work hours, I figured the gym would be full of business type people. I don't know what I was expecting but sure as shit not expecting the yard, the free weight area where the buff peacocks like to work out and strut and stare at themselves, to actually be full of eye candy. Not the show offs but nice eye candy. "Orion" Metallica I have to say the album Master Of Puppets is good for making out and fucking. I digress. I may have locked onto eyes longer than socially accepted. Especially on a few machines, the sitting leg press for one, as I was drawing my legs in to my chest my normal glance is eyes up maybe at the eyebrows then look away. But for one decent piece an eye lock and a smile. I was startled. I normally don't stay long enough to see another's reactive facial response. Another eye lock was on a stretching machine. You actually lock up your wrists so when you stretch back you won't fall back off the machine. I climbed that thing a little too happy to bind my wrists and I purposely sought out eyes to lock onto. I spot a decent young man, 12 o'clock; straddle the seat, eyes locked onto his and slowly slide both wrists into bands. A small faint smile crosses my lips as I pull my arms apart slowly to tighten the bands around my wrists. Ah, shit that felt good. I gave a thank you smile with a slight head nod to him for joining me on the little binding event I gave myself. Looked away and proceeded to lean back and enjoy the stretch. Okay back to the snap. I added something to my story that only he would understand. Why can I work that app better when I'm buzzed/drunk than sober? His reply was something like, he says I'm cute we can just play with each other. My panties melted slightly. Because, he did not in fact reject my proposal, but we can still play. He's there. He's a dom. And here's the thing, he's a hot young pup that likely has hundreds of instasnatch snacks playing with him already daily. He can make his rounds without getting bored of the person, however, doing the same thing with different chicks has to at a point get boring or in need of a greater stimulus because the receptors are burnt out. "Leper Messi ah" Metallica This is where this D/s comes into play! Not only that, but how do these people that play this way keep from catching feelings? Especially from women. I can't speak for others but know myself and by having D/s relations it would have a professional feel. I don't know, maybe I need to research if subs fall in love with their Doms or visa versa. I feel like it would work for me and give me something to write about. Maybe it's too much for him and that his 'dom' was just kinky bedroom stuff but not really a fetish thing. He's nervous? I don't know I can't speculate, but he has nothing to be nervous about. I think back when we did talk I was speaking to him in front of the house and he enjoyed that fact. That I had to carefully choose my words but I had to answer him. Ahhhhh, that was fucking hot. And to me very dom behavior, yes? I wish he would reconsider. I think this, I know this play would be amazing. I want him to dom me. I want to experience this. We could go slow as I think it normally does. I find out what he likes to be called. He continues to call me babygirl. I ask what would he have me do this week? Maybe start small, I'm to jerk off right before lunch, call out by his dom name. And then how to prove it was done, maybe a video, an audio, or a picture? I don't maybe record an audio and send it right away after completion because he'd expect it before noon sometime this week before the weekend. "Eye Of The Beholder" Metallica Definitely in a mood. Likely, scared him off. I seem pushy, or needy for wanting him to dom me which is a weird thing because subs are kind of wanting or needing to have stuff done. I don't have a next plan, I really didn't want to find a stranger. I thought he would, maybe I just need to go slow let this naturally develop? But I thought D/s were agreed upon before hand, like rules and safe words. Maybe he is reading some of my ideas and he's busy thinking about his own how to proceed with me. Handle me. Well, my imagination runs when he makes any contact with me so there's that; my imagination and just a hello babygirl ahhhnnnd I'm coming. Fitting end I suppose. "Shortest Straw" Metallica
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"Work" Iggy Azalea
A mood. So spank me. Yes, really. Frustrated. Sexually frustrated and vibing hard. Cleaning up a "Daddy section" and so many thoughts. Thinking about Dv and how he would be better suited for the dom I need. A young pup, cocky, and very self assured would be better pushing my comfort zone. I don't mind a soft dom but I feel like with Mr. Pickle I would have to teach him how to dom. Dv though, I think I could just give him a list of task ideas and he'd run with it. Know what to do. He'd learn me; rewards and punishments. I'd have the tasks listed by grade. I complete sections and then I could move up from a... Whoa I was on a roll working on my daddy section. I completed and compiled lists, notes and details such as responsibilities for Dom and sub. Really detailed with Dv in mind. "Candy Shop" 50 Cent It's really a good list. I cleaned it up some because it was working me hard. Quickly, I wanted to send it to him see if he'd dom me. Then couldn't contain myself after I sent him a message about it. I ran to the bathroom. Headphones on, no need for the vibrator this wasn't going to take me long. Threw on some "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye. Fantasizing he responds with, "Yes send me the proposal." And with that he's equally turned on. Emphasized, I am really looking for a D/s 'relationship' here. Not just some extra kinky way to send nudes and get each other off but me wanting to be a sub. His sub. I want to complete tasks from him for him. I want to be rewarded by him. From him I want to be punished. He said no to me being his domme, okay after researching this lifestyle more I can see how he'd be a perfect Dom. I tested as a switch so I'm perfectly, rather purrrrrfectly content being a submissive; his. I've 'played' in the bedroom like minor playing just to get myself and my partner off and I've always wanted to be a sub but no one took me seriously and really dove in with me. He's adorable. He'd be good at this. Thinking back on our playing; yes he would order me nicely. Since I already 'know' him I'd feel better than finding someone off a website. And he's really hot. Young pup so cocky, yes him. He him would be soooooo gooood to dom me. "Vitamin D" Ludacris I'm scared to check snap. Told him if not interested or curious enough to see my proposal then decide, to just leave me on read. No reply is necessary I don't actually want to read, "No thank you." He already crushed me before. Okay what to do then if I don't hear back. Should I continue writing a fantasy as if he is dom'ing me? Do I join a website and find an actual dom? Writing about the process of finding a dom would be interesting. However, uh, I want him. Need him. He could 'fix' my hard vibe. Okay I'm just checking snap quickly. Phew. Not opened yet. Delivered 23 minutes ago. Gawd I think I'm going to have to use the bathroom again. This wait is making butterflies in my stomach drop to my crotch. Last check. 31 minutes delivered. I'm just going to post out of order and throw this up now. Maybe this will serve as intent and the magical universe will help answer my 'prayer'. Hmmmmm. Buzzing/humming in the background. Not my vibrator. The space heater, which means I'm happily purring in my writing studio. Fucking silence. Cold air, but feeling warmth of my electric lap blanket. Cold Elysian Dragonstooth stout to wet my lips. I've got my bump n grind playlist because I feeling I am coming down with something; I am catching a DV mood, maybe?
"Let's Get It On" Marvin Gaye Damn, such a light weight, and loving it because a third in and feeling the warmth of a buzz coming on. Feeling like a satin ribbon unwinding like a wind spinner. Old joke or saying, I am suddenly reminded of because of the word 'spinner'; I'm only 5'2" and when the cutie would comment how short I am I would reply with, "Easier to spin." Dv. Last night I ended up snapping with someone I follow on tiktok. I stupidly fan'd out for a second because he didn't ask for a nude in fact he has a video to discourage followers from sending one. Super cool. He gives really good sex tips. One was for the fellas how to go down on a woman and I damn near needed a release because of how well he described a technique. I later told him I write about sexual fantasies and past hook ups because I've been sexually repressed for 8 years and I'm the desperate house wife cliche. He had a video for the ladies how not all ladies can be a deep throat queen but had tips to satisfy. It made me think of one of my posts, "Dic Pic". I told him it is one of my favorite pieces. I spent a long time on it, even researched and pulled from all kinds of memories. I really went deep, pun intended! But I am curious what a male thought about the post. He reminded me he's dyslexic and that I would have to read it to him sometime. "Learn Ya" 6lack I didn't read it to him, but got me thinking. Could I? Could I actually read that to a male? How would that make me feel? Would it excite me? Would it excite him? Well, and the thought of me reading it to him and him getting turned on of course would excite me. Him who you wonder? Well, the one that inspired me to write it. Speaking of which. Which, he, started more fantasies. No big deal but Dv messaged me back a thank you for his birthday wishes. Ahhhhnnndd why did my face want to anime uwu? My body got tingly too. Could I read his piece of his piece to him? I'm laughing at how funny that sentence is. But it is sure fun to fantasize about reading that post to Dv. I think I may make an audio to it to test how it sounds. Yes, it would be fun to read it to the other guy but I'd feel weird about it because it wasn't meant for him, I specifically wrote it for Dv. So if anybody is going to hear about it from me, it should be him. Going to read aloud to myself now. Until the flip... "Let's Get It On" Marvin Gaye
Yes. I put it to bed. But..tomorrow is Dv's birthday. Ahhhnnnd well, he was at the right place at the right time to wake something in me. I appreciate the playful banter, the chemistry and the inspiration to write; he threw it out there and I caught it. Having been without sex and without a physical connection for 8 years I even stopped listening to music; felt gone and frozen forever. I get it was a matter of time for someone else to brush up against me and wake me up. However I'd like to think there was a little bit more with me meeting him. The brief time we spoke I don't know if he remembered one of my favorite bands but sent me a video of him playing it at his job when he was at work by himself. Okay just got lost in my messages from him. They're fucking hot. Yea I don't like snapchat. It's great for the freaky shit but it's great for dopamine levels to be able to go back and reread the rest of the sexy stuff. Feels good to have some nice messages not disappear. The ability to go back, reread conversations, to get worked up again and have a release. I may reread his messages and take care of mami this morning. I don't think he visits so no spoiled surprises here. But I plan on at midnight to send a picture of my legs with a birthday message. Also last night I hopped on Fallout 76 for the sole purpose to find the Mad Hatter's table party scene to take a picture and send it to him. Spent an hour looking for it and taking some pictures. I have a display case in my camp of items that remind me of our meeting: Telephone- for the talks and his delicious voice, Missile- well do I need to explain the phallic symbolism there? Skeleton mask- because that's what his character had worn I don't even know what his character's face looks like. Funny. And a stealth boy because yes stealth level 1000; he crept is how we met. "Neighbors Know My Name" Trey Songz Just a couple of pictures, a token of appreciation. A thank you for the thaw, returning music to my life and for being you~ Until I can level up, I will keep warm, stirred and purred with his saved messages. keep it up and stay slow "Can You Handle It" - Usher
Driving on the highway, I'm wearing my poncho no one can see what I'm doing while driving. Distracted. My thoughts and the loud music are dancing seductively. I want to move my hips. Right hand slips under. My crotch is warm. I can work myself, right here, right now; start rubbing in circles. My vehicle speed dropped, not paying attention. If it was a long stretch I could lock in cruise control and give myself a ride. I need a wearable vibrator. He creeps in my thoughts. I sent a final picture to him and told him it's chill but I'm gonna see myself out. I can see he deleted something after. For a second I wondered what it was. Maybe best he didn't, maybe he changed his mind and he's keeping the door open. If he was my sub, I'd drive past my house to a secluded area and text him. I need him. Now. He'd promptly call. I no longer want to be addressed as MissChiefMich. He's progressed nicely. I want him to address me as Mistress Mich now. Him saying my name. So easy to get me started. While I'm cumming he's instructed to say my name only. Then after my orgasm he asks if he pleased Mistress Mich. My thoughts return to my driveway. I'm home. Sigh. If only. Now what to do. With all of this. Continue writing of course. It won't end because he's not for me to domme or because I'm not ready for a facetime orgasm only to get tossed after tossing. Do I end this entire section, start a new tab? I think I will keep all of this right here. He has his section. A great read. But if this was mainly fantasy stirred by an actual encounter, then only makes sense the next encounter with him or anyone else should also be included here. Speaking of which, next encounter. "Big Pimpin" Jay-Z The gym. A trainer there. Not too tall but nicely thick. Dark long hair. A smile that caught me off guard. I laugh out loud because I actually turned around to see if the smile was directed to someone behind me. Surely, wasn't for me. Hair in bun. Workout pants hugging tightly to my curves, a wrinkled tshirt and no makeup. I turn. No one behind me. I smile back. Guess she meant it for me. |
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AuthorReleasing some steam. You should want to know me, not just a woman with pent up passion. Oh yea and you should start this from the beginning. |