"Drop It Like It's Hot" Snoop Dog I can't sleep and about finished with my cold-thank god since corona virus is in my city my sickness was triggering my anxiety. Happy to note I didn't even need anxiety emergency medication. A few message exchanges between him and I but with me being sick I feel out of it and I don't know perhaps my vibe is off. Maybe in the next few days I'll be back. I joined a woman's book club. I've done one before so I had to ask the member that invited me if this was really a book club or just an excuse for women to get together drink wine and bitch about shit. Don't get me wrong, that's fun too. But she assured me it's a book club and sent me information about date, time location and the book, Wicked Fall by Sawyer Bennett. Hesitant since the last 'sex' book I tried to read which left me deflated and disappointed was 50 Shades of Grey. What the hell at the very least I have a great time with female friends making new friends. Bought the book had it sent to my tablet. Started a little on Friday, a bit more on Saturday thinking well it has captured my interest enough I want to keep going. Sunday night, tonight I'm about at the half way mark and fired up enough to write. Flushed. Wet. Sure the book started me. The great thing about the tablet is I can see sections highlighted multiple times. I chuckle a little because the sections that are highlighted by previous readers are not my reasons for highlighting. In fact the sentences I highlighted haven't been. Some reason this thought turns me on; I'm highlighting descriptive paragraphs that move me, physically makes me twitch. Sentences that I find not only a turn on but I think, wow I like me some of them adjectives and nouns and perhaps should use something like that when I write. Not wanting to spoil for a possible reader, after a steamy interaction between the main characters, the chapter ends with, a typical dramatic comparison. Comparing having to end an interaction the same as having to stop breathing. However, according to my tablet, 43 highlighters were used to emphasize the importance of this sentence. And here I highlight sentences such as "...I'm dying to orgasm inside of her. Mark her." Or "...I could sit here and lick this woman for hours to hear that again and again..." I guess I'm not of the typical audience of this book. Maybe because I'm also studying the writing style. It's been years since I read anything steamy let alone finish and enjoyed the book. The books I had given away I wish I hadn't because one, I can't remember the title, was my favorite. My favorite was about BDSM. In particular a scene I remember the female lead was at a dinner party and she was nervous when the person she didn't know next to her started fingering her. She was enjoying and frightened by it. All the while the object of her desire was watching knowing what was going on. Disappointing I can't remember the title. So the next book I tried was "50 Shades of Grey" and because it was so bad I felt I wouldn't read erotica anymore. Figured the book club would help get me back into reading that genre again. Let someone else decide what I should read. Good sub girl. Studying the author's erotic style, words he chose, and getting into the story, my thoughts also sprinkle to him. Then back to a fantasy of mine. I love watching Hysterical Readings. I enjoy watching women read while being stimulated by a vibrator. Fully clothed. Sitting unassumingly at a table just reading. Other than maybe a hum of the vibrator just looks like a live reading. I experience ASMR with some of the voices and I get turned on watching others getting turned on. But more so I put myself in there place. I would love to get out of my comfort zone and do a reading without showing my face. Maybe using lightening to semi hide it or a filter. Certain chapters in the current book I'm reading could get me off. Or shit even better read one of my posts. My favorite posts. I could have my own version of Hysterical Readings Of Favorite Posts. Ooohh maybe have someone decide what to read? My dom decide? If had to pick right off the top of my head, I like Dic Pic and Wicked Game. "Ride- Remix" SoMo Being sick and my head muddled with thoughts that I can't process nor digest conversations I had with him; this song is hitting spots on me. I even had a session with Mr. Pickle Friday night. As great as it was I didn't feel like writing about it. Okay, I now remember a two minute orgasm, I was imagining Dom A present and directing me, while I was cumming he oddly messaged me during that time. That would've been a great post to write about. Timing, would've been a good title too. "You Learn" Alanis Morissette When I'm sick my emotions are heightened, it takes extra time to settle my emotions. I should've meditated tonight and certainly need to get back on my routine. I feel like my energy is leaking and I'm not replenishing. Giving myself away somewhere. I could use some grounding. My hour long music rabbit hole has me ending up on this song. What started out a semi-book review with a touch of a fantasy that crossed my mind while reading said book has turned left down emotion ville. I really dislike being sick. "Wait until the dust settles" "You live you learn, you love you learn
You cry you learn, you lose you learn You bleed you learn, you scream you learn"
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