One of the Desperate House Wives said something to the effect, "If you're gonna hijack a Ferrari better know how to drive one." Okay dv had his voice going for him and also in his favor is that I haven't had sex in 8 years; if you starving you gonna think a saltine cracker is some grade A beef. This was never about him. He just happened to be at the right place right time, my ticking time bomb was ready to explode from anyone. I sure to shit hope he doesn't think this writing creation is some weird tribute in his honor or he thinks I'm pining breathlessly waiting for his reappearance.
I'd wish all of this to not have happened if I legit scared him in some way whether he thought I had feelings or thought of me as a stalker; that would suck and I'd feel super shitty about my behavior. When I went back to his pic, major face palm. He's so young. What was I thinking? So, this was my dark, well part of my dark. The moment was fun, I saw an opportunity, took it and ran with it. I drove myself. He was the sexy voiced young valet that brought me my Ferrari back to me, I handled the rest. I was a Nascar Craftsman Truck series geek girl. I have an actual Nascar tire from a Craftsman truck Andy Houston- (I just wanted a Chevy tire I wasn't his fan)and countless collector items. I drove myself from Sacramento to Auto Club Speedway formally called California Speedway to watch the event alone. My bf didn't want to go the race which was in 1998; likely the year dv was born. Oh my. Okay, still no regrets. The memory of his voice is completely gone, along with any future fantasies. I'm already to start a belly dancing class then a pole class; both forms of dancing are sexy and expressive and I have always loved to dance. Too bad most of all my partners hated to dance and/or were bad dancers. But this will be just for me. I also will continue to write, to release my sexual energies and I've been thinking of including my past hot escapades. A running yellow flag in a race is a green flag and yellow flag waving together. Means race is being restarted but under caution. Because I'm still open for inspiration, the green flag to go. Yellow flag to remind myself my next inspiration has got to be at least in their 30's. Can't take themselves too seriously; this is just for fucking, fantasy for fucks sakes. I haven't deleted delicious voice, as a gaming friend. I don't have the heart to delete people; just seems so final. Deleting him would make me feel like all of this was just made up, and I don't want that; the brief moment was real not a fantasy.We haven't played FO76 together since the "episode" and last month he tossed me a "it's chill" bullshit. With him, I'm good. I will remain in my lane. Good girl, now... ...for the next course and this time with a seasoned driver. ;)
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