I have a spotify playlist for my offspring while in the mommy van; some of these artists and songs have grown on me. Why this morning Taylor Swift's "Ready For It" song was stuck in my head upon wakening. In particular, this verse... Baby, let the games begin Let the games begin Let the games begin Are you ready for it? Baby, let the games begin Let the games begin Let the games begin Are you ready for it? Not a reflection question as I know the answer. But interesting my brain processed last night's activities and presented the digested evening in this manner; more specifically the words.
I did it. I signed up, at the website to learn more about D/s lifestyle. I felt like just diving in and make an ad. I did end up replying to a handful of potentials and there are a couple I'm in interested in but if not a fit I would continue a friendship since I'm so new and they have helped already. One South American in particular was very helpful and kind to spend a generous amount of time answering my questions. A lot of them dom right out of the gate, I'm feeling like this has to be included in the process getting to know if it's a fit or not. Through our discussion, a few incidences of clarity or realization of how this play can be so intense, my stomach would get butterflies and drop. I am running currently on only almost 4 hours of sleep and my mind is racing. My body is full of electric energy. I'd likely have multiples even as tired as I am. However first thing I wanted to do and am doing is writing. Passionately writing. I can have 'this' in between muses or during a muse or with permission of course the D/s experience in of it'self is my muse. I re-did my dom page just to give myself and possibly others an idea about me. Also for posterity purposes; a documentation of my growth during this experience and because of this experience. This after all is about becoming undone; however I don't feel like there needs to be chaos in coming undone. More of peeling back layers and layers of others' perceived notions, own biases, fears, self sabotage leading to examination, acceptance and admiration. What a great time coming undone will be. until the flip lie back and let go
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AuthorReleasing some steam. You should want to know me, not just a woman with pent up passion. Oh yea and you should start this from the beginning. |