2/25/20 3 of 3 that should've been posted sooner...protecting someone's feelings. damn. dumb. oh well. I was spent. After my rapid succinct cum sessions, because of cub, I was drained. The dopamine levels hit high with him and just as quickly left. Feeling very drained, depressed, and deflated. I told him what happened and I needed a break, I wasn't ghosting. He responded nicely with, something like, sure thing do you. Yeah not as cool and mature as I thought. Not his fault his brain isn't fully grown until 26. So maybe next cub will have to be at least 26.
I thought wow, okay maybe all is good but then came in the dic pics. Thoroughly enjoyed, however I needed a break not a continuance of dopamine highs. So after the third or fourth, likely he snapped to all just catching a fish, I didn't open. I couldn't open. But then wanted to make sure he didn't take it personally so I hit him up on Facebook. Telling him that something about him or something he does gets me super high but then I crash after. I just need a couple days to recuperate. I even sent him a link to a book about Shibari. I had mentioned rope tying because he sent me a pic of girl in forearm restraints. He said he'd learn for me. After I sent the link I couldn't sit still and keep my eyes to myself so I peeked at his snap. Wow. Damn. Pretty pretty dick. Commented on it that he makes taking a break too hard on me....automatic reply says "pending friend request". I hopped back to Facebook and told him that him unfriending me hurt. But still, I will keep my word and not block him, ghost him or unfriend him. However, if he wanted back in my good graces he has to work for it this time. He has to learn a rope trick then send me video and I would reward him equally. Yes, it was a good attempt on my part. I had to let him know I don't get played when I play; just fucking play. Now I have plenty of time to fantasize about what I would do if in fact he did call me on my bluff and send me a video of some rope trick. Yeah, a bluff because I don't know what I would do. I told him that sort of thing has to be done with someone I trust and he's shown his word is shit. So how could I trust him if I used a safe word that he'd actually listen and respond appropriately. Also his follow through sucks so I'm not holding my breath. He can play with his instagrabs; anyone can rub one out to pretty much anything but I am looking for mind fucking and play. I can read a book and get off. Speaking of which I will have to add another book review. The new book I'm reading has some scenes I didn't think would work me up but has me lusting with desire! mmmmm MFM and light gang bangs...oh my! Until the flip~ learn a rope trick
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